therez nothing to tell about my life until grade 8. thats when i first told my friend that my parents hit me. she made me tell the teacher. and by law he has to tell the office who called childrens aid, so tan i knew from that day on my life would be hell, thast when i first started to cut. well than after a year or so chrildrens aid were gone and my life was starting to fall bcak togeather again. i got happy fast but depressed even faster. you see i met my ex friend stephines (now ex) boyfriend dylan(hell come up alot) and i instently new that id love him for a long time. sure enoight we were in the same homeroom in grade 9 and became my friend but anyways. so ive liked with guys for a year and nothings happned. so i became depressed but just a little bit. sure enough arguements were one again regular at home, and it was like watching a brokn mirror fall. my life had crashed hard. so i cut once again. Parents found out this time and were mad. i stoped cuting per say. i just called it body modification, or as others no it as mutlation. everyone belived me so i did it twice a few months later. I went to a metal show in grade 10 around febuary or march of 2004 and got drunk with my buddy bree. i also liked ben at this point andmade out with him a few weeks earlier in a park. but anyways me and bree got him alone in the forest and made out with him and each other. well this he pulled out his dick and all i remember is bree not doing anything and thinging "fuck it" and that was it. well turns out he had a girlfriend too.  well now were into march. by now ive tried weed with dylan and started to realy skip. id only skip 1-4 classes a week by the end of april it was almost every day id skip. by may it went to about 4 callses a week out of 20 ( 4 times a day and 5 times a week). june cam, once calss a week. by than id go to classes get bored and walk out and get dylan than we'd go to dylans house and get his brother kyle and than go get shawn. kyle and shawn became like my brothers those months. they watched out over me. (exsept for the fast they hit on me alot) and dylan was like a boyfriend to me. this was heaven but hell. cause i still liked him (over 4 years now). i didnt even go to classes the last 2 weeks of june really.and by this time my parents had put me on contract because id come home and the convorsations was "how was your day?""meh, fine""go to calss today?""nope, and?""what ever katherine your just wasting your life.""yahhuh love you to" and id walk off. other than that me and my parents wouldnt talk unless it was me asking to goout which was always fallowed by "you doing any drugs? any sex? anything else bad that i should know about?" and than when i got home it was the same exact thing. so far thats my life i still get depressed and will continue to. but i love everyone thats helped shaped me. and helped me threw everything. Manda you'll for ever be loved in my heart! i love you so much for what you've help me go threw. and ill always remember how u make me smile!!heh so nows its grade 11.. i was good untill after the holidays.. than i became like before.. sept my parnets dont kno yet.. its kinda funny actuly cause my mom told me i was gonna start skipping.. and so i did.. it more as if she told me i was gonna that i did.. now i sit here at the computer thing.. my lifes FUCKED.. but heh you know what i dont care anymore:D im alive so people are happy.. and i got my friends and music so im happy.. it all works.. but ive lost manda.. never really talk to her anymore.. so what ever.. it sucks.. but what can yuh do..? now ima go and clean or some shit.. cause theres nothing really more to write about my life.. im just a sick twisted child who gets in more shit everyday.. love yall..